Emotional~

I'm definitely more emotional nowadays~ I mean... I din used to cry when I read other ppl's birth stories~! Yeah reading alot of birth stories nowadays to get myself accustomed to wads most probably gonna happen~ These stories used to intimidate mi... but now tat im so much more nearer to labour, i juz feel so damn moved by these stories lor~ Everytime i see a story tat is accompanied by a photo of a mother cuddling her newborn i'll cry immediately coz i get so overwhelmed~ i tink of zeze when he comes out & when i get to hold him... arh~!! so many emotions~ its like... givin birth is such a MIRACLE~ such a wonderful experience... i haven gone thru it yet, but im sure im never gonna forget it~ how arh.. im still overwhelmed... i stil feel so excited abt zeze & so anticipating seeing him & cuddling him~! *calm down... calm down...*

thinkin back, when i was stil single & studyin & naive, i din tink much of stuff liddat... but now tat im becomin a mom myself... i mean... its such a wonderful feeling~

2 days ago there was this news abt a gal in her twenties throwin her newborn baby down the rubbish chute... laogong called mi juz to tell mi about it~ i was kinda confused at first... like y was he callin mi juz to tell mi dis? so i replied, "dis is nt e first time dis has happened arh..." Laogong immediately replied "now tat i haf a son, i feel differently about this lor..." I see... laogong was more emotionally affected by it den if I wasn pregnant wif our dearest baby boy... yeah... den it made mi realised how different a parent can be from a normal person~ i mean, the responsibilities, the emotions... *sighz* its realli a wonderful thing... to haf a child... to be parents... to actualli create a new life because we love each other so much... (told u im emotional now~ thinkin alot hor?) we haven even met our boi... but we alreadi so attached to it... laogong caresses my tummy alot more nowadays~ he keeps askin zeze to move for him too~ he's realli gonna be a great father~ i mean... he's alreadi such a wonderful husband... its no wonder he gonna be a wonderful daddy too~

frankly speaking, laogong din used to be so emotional abt mi & zeze... my heart always hurts when i miss him, but tat onli happened for him recently. nowadays he tells mi more often tat he misses mi & zeze so much tat it hurts~ of coz i feel happy abt it, it juz means tat our love is growing~ im sure zeze contributed somehow... for one thing, zeze definitely caused us to be husband & wife~ havin zeze definitely made us love each other more den we ever did... and its such a wonderful feeling to noe tat we r gonna love zeze as much as we love each other... *argh why am i typing out everithin tat is goin thru my head now tat im in an emotional state*

i better stop here b4 sumbodi pukes at my post~ (i wonder got who so cold-blooded~ no emotion arh~!) *sighz* go rest le... *yang tai*