Wish I Were Happier~

Feeling the blues~ Dunno y~ Juz haf dis stupid feelin tat I'm not gettin enough attention frm laogong~ Dunno leh... keep havin the feeling he doesn care enough... muz be my own psychological problem... but it's definitely makin mi feel horrible~ i wish he understood~ i wish he'll pay more attention to me~ to zeze oso... *sighz* usualli i wun liddat de leh... dunno y dis week liddat~ muz be the raging hormones~ arghz~

aniwae now veri sianz lor~ laogong go jogging le... feel even more empty now tat he aint around~ wah liewz realli havin dis sianz half feeling~ feeling gek~ feeling hopeless~ wads wrong wif mi?! stupid hormones~!

aniwae juz now went JE walk walk wif laogong lor~ bought quite a few egg tarts to munch at home~ bought a blueberry waffle to munch on while walkin to the library too~ i shld be gainin weight... but im not lor... at most onli 0.5kg since a few weeks ago~ terrible amount of weight gain~ too little~! im realli scared zeze's birth weight is too low when he comes out~ *sighz*

i realli need a good long hug frm laogong... haiz...